well, this is it. it's december, and its snowing. this has been the one thing that i was excited about when i was coming here, seeing snow. well, i've seen it, and undoubtedly it has made me happy. but what i didnt count on was the holiday season. people going home, to celebrate the holiday with their families and loved ones. and what am i doing? nothing. the highlight of my day now is going to CRCE, for a workout, and we all know how much i enjoy that(not!). the holiday cheer that i initially felt because school was out is replaced by a feeling of loneliness. this may be because there are only three of us in the house now, and one of them is leaving on wednesday. then it'll be just the two of us.alone in the house.

i remember when i was in Chicago the last time, i saw a homeless man for the first time. i cant describe what i felt when i saw him. it just seemed so unreal. there he was, his clothes all tattered,using a plastic bag as protection from the pelting rain. all the while, he was surrounded by shops that boasted the fanciest and most expensive things that you can imagine. it seemed so ludicrous.

seeing that made me feel thankful for all the things i have and the people i love. i guess the world can be cruel, although maybe it isn't the world at fault, maybe its the people in it. i learned one thing though. Giving just $5 to those who need it more than i do brightened up my day, from the "God Bless you" that i received in return.