i came across this song by ungu, an indonesian band, titled "kekasih gelapku". the lyrics for the song are below:

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

when i heard this song, i felt incredulous disbelief. i mean, i might have loved this song a few months back, but then, its stupid. if she is the person who he loves most in the world more than anything or anyone, then why isn't he with her? why is she his "mistress" instead of his gf? does this make sense to anyone? if you truly love that person, you would be willing to do anything to be with that someone, and not just whine about how much you love that person but you can't be with them! life's too short. stop wishing stuff like you wished you met him/her before you met your current partner.make a choice.

P.S: i know i'm ranting about nonsense, but it makes sense for me :)

-beetoo@ freeze