first of all, thanks beewon.

secondly, i have tried letting go of the past. i did try. but then when i thought i had finally done it, it comes right back up and slaps me in the face. i was right, and i'm proven right again. so i guess that's that.

i asked for a break. i guess i need time to think.i need time to be alone. i just want to crawl into a small space, and just think. to be honest ( i hate that word now), i want to see how life would be on my own. i barely slept last night, and i woke up after 3 hours of unsettling sleep. i still dont feel better. i though i would feel saner or less muddle headed on a break. do i give up too easily? but that's how i protect myself. i've learned that the best way to protect yourself against hurt is to never let anyone close enough to hurt you.

i do realise that people will wonder what the heck i'm talking about, but that's ok. lets just say that beetoo is in desperate need of comforting chicken and indomee.

freeze@beetoo